I have been suspecting for many years that my mother may have been a narcisist.
And now I also realized that I may have been her flying monkey in such a long time.
I think I'm a horrible person with stress, anxiety, anger issue and resentment, so much that I have been disrespectful or abusive to people around me and started to turn apathetic in the past 2 years.
I know I need professional help but this is not something I'm able to afford now.
I can only keep telling myself that I can rewire my brain and change how I view the world by consistent practice with cognitive behavioral therapy techniques.
I hope I will be well again one day and hope that I will be able to help people who are in similar situation as mine.
Best.
