I really need to get this off my chest.
My family has been struggling financially ever since I was a child.
My mom and dad separated when I was three. My sister was just a new born.
After the separation we moved to my grandma's from my mom's side of the family.
Life was tough.
My uncle who lived with us basically made sure I wasn't happy.
He would bully me into doing anything he wanted. I was a child who couldn't defend himself.
Every time I told my mom she would brush it off as nothing serious.
My toys, clothes, shoes, even my bike would end up either torn, punctured or just misplaced all together.
My grandma was on his side. That bitch always told me that I did not deserve happiness.
That people need to suffer so that they know how the real world works. She added to the trauma.
Fast forward to 2017, we finally moved out.
Since then, we have been struggling financially and my dad doesn't want to help.
My mom's salary is off paying loans and debt so the little that's left goes from hand to mouth.
My uncle has been helping out but recently he doesn't want to pick up when we call.
I get it, we are a burden and have been since forever.
We are not his responsibility and he doesn't have to send us any money but we really need it.
I don't have a job at the moment. So I cannot help out.
Today, the landlord has promised to throw us out and has given us an eviction notice for not paying three months rent.
I am struggling mentally. I am depressed, tired and hanging on by a thread.
I am definitely thinking about suicide.
My dad told me that I was dead to him after asking him to help out.
Why do people have children and then realize they didn't want any in the first place?
I am really going to hang myself. No one cares. Every one in my family is tired.
I wish that I was dead. Please help.
