My Life Confessions

I have thought about killing myself everyday this week. I feel like it would be better then living. More

I’m recovering from SAD, panic attack disorder, depression, anorexia, ptsd and self-harm. In name of my recovery I forced myself to go to boarding school, to be around people and get used to the world outside the psychiatric ward. It wasn’t the world’s best decision–I feel so lost here. Talking to people is such a […] More

this morning, i am having one of my days. to add salt to wound, that rat-looking piece of shit sat by me because it was crowded on the bus. i hate him so much, if there was a bridge and he was hanging by a ledge, id push him off and make him fall. dont […] More

Im in love with my best friend. Like deeply in love. I have had a crush on him since the day we met….I dont know if I can tell him because it might ruin our friendship More

A lot. I wouldn’t do it, I just think about it way too much. More

I am in about $40,000 of credit card and student loan debt and nobody knows about it but me. My college was paid for by a family member, but I got a bunch of student loans and and credit cards and spent tons of money on women and drugs and all sorts of crazy things. […] More

Yesterday i was walking through walmart and i saw the little isle where all the trading cards are… and for some reason i grabbed a pack of nba cards and i felt like i needed to tell somebody More

I hit the front corner of a car today. It scratched the heck out of it. A long streak down my car too. My car is a junker, so I’m not worried about it. Called for the Speedy Locksmith Boulder CO just one time, literally, otherwise would keep the car open all times. But I […] More

I’m totally in focus on being a disciple and someone who carries God word wherever i may be. I’ve given my life to Christ and i live accordingly. About a month ago my buddy and i took pills while drinking, i drink because my anxiety controls me at times as i have been diagnosed with […] More

Today I got depressed that I didn’t work in a taller building. The building I work in is only 2 floors and if I jump off the roof I’d only break a leg or sprain an ankle. I could try and land on my neck but that’d be too risky if I messed up and […] More

I like to keep things hidden. I have bulimia. I’m 14 and it’s just easier to not tell anyone. I’m not ready to let go just yet. Truth is,I want to die. More

First, I am a good person. I am not the goodie goodie that people make me out to be. I am not totally happy with my life. I look forward to my last work night so I can go home and drink and smoke my newports. Why? I can’t really say. I think it is […] More