I had to cut off a friend for my girlfriend. I am heartbroken.
I have never been one to make friends easily. Hence why i do not have friends.
But someone at my work began talking to me and we got closer.
This person is a female and she had a sense of comfort to her that made it so easy to talk.
Now she has a boyfriend and a baby.
Conversation was always innocent.
But we grew close to the point of emailing each other almost daily about our days.
My mistake was keeping it a secret.
My relationship of 16 years has been rocky.
And i would think my girlfriend would not understand the friendship simply because she was female.
So i hid it.
One day it recently it blew up in my face when my gf found my friends email address.
We ended up talking for hours and made up.
A lot of realizations were made about the relationship and it seems things will be changing for the better BUT i have to cut my friend off and keep it only work related at work.
I feel terrible.
My friend really wanted to get close and have us over for parties and get togethers but it won’t happen now.
I finally make a friend and because of my bad decision i need to let her go.
My heart hurts. I feel bad. I hate myself
