When I Looked Over Again There Was No Sign Of Anyone

Since I have been out of work for over a month and live alone I've only been outside 6 times, 4 of which to the supermarket.

I'm 32 and left my husband 5 years ago and presently don't have a boyfriend.

I do miss my job at times but am in a way content to be alone.

I do watch a lot of tv but I have become addicted to masturbation and for the first time in my life have habitually watched on line porn.

The only time I have had a stitch of clothes or even underwear on is the few times I went out and haven't washed any clothes in a month.

Before this shut down I never roamed my apartment naked but now its 24 hours a day of nudity.

I just never thought about being naked all the time but now realize how nice it feels.

I have had a few boyfriends since my husband and I broke up but am no stranger to masturbation.

I own 2 vibrators that I've used sparingly over the years but now they are used extensively, 2 or 3 times daily.

Watching porn with the help of a vibrator has enhanced my arousal and increased the number of orgasms I achieve.

Then appeared Matthew who lives next door with his wife and 3 kids.

About 3 weeks ago at roughly 9 pm I was laying on my bed naked, watching porn and masturbating.

It was fairly warm out and I had the window open about 6 or 8 inches and saw someone looking in.

I assume I should have been alarmed but at the time I was into a long drawn out powerful orgasm.

When I looked over again there was no sign of anyone.

My bedroom window is where the dual driveway is and the next night I could see that Matt goes out there to smoke.

Rather then keep my window shut it stunned me how instead of embarrassing me I was stimulated by the thought that he had watched me.

Since then I know for sure he has watched me masturbate at least 8 more times.

When I know he is in the driveway smoking I intentionally go into my bedroom just so he can see me naked.

I know his wife and him and had spoke to them.

They are nice people and from the age of there kids believe they are in their 50's.

I never see his wife out there at night but Matt goes out to smoke always between 9 and 9:30.

I never did anything like this before but it excites me just having him see me naked.

When he watches me masturbate the orgasms erupt.

I find myself moaning, almost screaming and making a complete spectacle of myself.

Heaven knows what he thinks of me but I can't help the way it makes me feel.

He is always out there at night now so I'm sure he intentionally comes over to watch me.

I know how I am humiliating myself but the way it arouses me makes me react the way I do.

The only thing that worries me is when things go back to normal and I have to see him and his wife outside.

I can never let on that I know he's been watching me.