I did something when I was 11 years old, that I deeply regret.
I was playing with my little cousin and I put a toy near my private parts and asked him to pick up the toy.
Thanks to God he didn't do it, and I stopped it and never did it again.
I deeply regret it and it's something that consumes me and eats me when I'm sad.
I want to confess because I need to forgive myself.
I thought of suicide but I'm not "brave enough", I'm in a big depression but I want to save myself and I deserve forgiveness.
I am doing this in order to forgive myself and I needed to put this out there, with the rest of the world.
It hurts. I feel ashamed. Deeply ashamed. I wish I haven't done it.
I feel disgusted by myself and sometimes I think I am a bad person for it. But it's gone.
I'm not that person anymore.
And though it's wrong and bad, I'm starting to understand my little self and forgive myself for it.
I've done it. I've shared it. I'm ready to follow on with my life.
Thank you Jesus, thanks to everyone and please, whoever is out there help me follow my path.
I am forgiving myself because I know I am changed and I can be a good person.
I will never do that mistake again. I have qualities and I'm only human.
And I deeply apologize, publicly, to my little cousin.
I hope you'll never remember it and I love you so much.
I don't know why I did that back then, but I ask for your forgiveness in a way.
I'll redeem myself by being a good person, and be a good cousin to you. I'm so sorry.
I'm so so sorry. And to me, please let it go. Don't hurt yourself anymore. It's over.
Let it go, embrace your new self and let it be. You're not a bad person. I forgive you.
I forgive me.
