My real life, you mean the way I really am?
OK, I grew up in a very low income household, with an absent father, he was in prison.
My mother had visitors, men who came to see her and we heard everything. EVERYTHING.
From her begging for it, to him grabbing for it.
Don't misunderstand me, the important part here about me growing up, was learning that girl begs for it and the man gives it.
Not the other way around.
But when I went through junior high and high school I became cold and distant and friendless.
I dressed overly conservative, covering everything.
Shaving my legs forced me to deal with my unshaved and extremely dark and hairy puss.
Covering up was better, it didn't give the girls a chance to embarrass me.
I found myself a virgin in every respect at work in a grown up world.
Men and women, babies and dating, sex talks, questions about how do you like your husband or boyfriend, or I suppose girlfriend, to play with your clit.
It gave me the shivers. Cold sweats.
I was frigid, a male touching me sent angst charges down my back.
I NEVER kissed a man, not even lightly, not on the cheek, not ever.
A man's hand on me was something to scream about.
Don't blame me too much, I went to Catholic high school and college.
When the day came, it comes for everyone, I know that now.
When that day came, and I was held down hard and felt up, and my shirt was lifted and my bare breast under my bra groped, and my pants pushed down and my extremely hairy bushy puss was exposed I was mad and spit on him and hit him.
But nothing stopped him, it ended like it started, he was going to stick his dick in me and he did.
And when he pushed up he told me to shave my puss, or he wasn't going to eat me.
GET THAT HAIRY SNATCH CLEANED UP.
The next day he asked me if I had shaved my puss.
I WANT SMOOTH LIPS SO I CAN EAT YOU. You know, suck on my clit.
I know, because other girls talked about it.
I shaved but it was all wrong and out of pure embarrassment and fear that he was going to reject me, I went to another girl and asked for help and she took me to wax parlor and I was waxed until there wasn't a hair left, Now he could eat me, she also told me to get some juices so my puss would taste good to him.
She touched my clit, she was there while I was waxed and it was very sensitive.
She kissed my clit and sucked it a little.
Get ready she told me, he is going to fuck the shit out of you.
I had to open my legs, show him that I was properly cleaned up and he looked at my butthole.
Now he ate me, fingered both my vagina and my butthole, inserted his penis in my vagina and my butthole.
He wanted it both ways and he got it both ways.
I told my friend and she gently dealt with my butthole.
It felt good, and she kissed my clit and sucked on it a little, and kissed my butthole and licked it a bit and then grabbed my tits and kissed me on the mouth.
And all that felt good and I laid back and let her and asked for more with my eyes and shook my head yes.
