I lashed out at him for nothing I am feeling now……now I don't even if my anger was sensible….I thought I will feel free and everything…but exactly opposite I am feeling more stressful now….and I want this thing out with someone not in mutual contacts…..
4 months back he and his family came to my home for a marriage…to see me…..I can't complaint….I liked him….little bit more …..that I didn'tt stop thinking about.him untill now….even though I know it's over…and it's not gonna happen……after they day we caught up with each other on social.media…..which blossomed my feelings even.more..,..that I was already dreaming of our life together as husband and wife….and we hardly spoke for 4 days…and he had all of me already….I was not feeling good…coz I don't let myself carrying.away this fast…but me and my family really felt this will go somewhere…so I was positive and neglected everything…..day after day…it was me who used to initiate the convo…and one convo.was going on for 2 days.,.with 3 4 hrs gap of replies….I started cursing.myself that point why can't I control.my feeling….1 month gone 2 month gone….he and his family didn't.even.bothered to respond either yes or no….my rage start developing.more…..i don't like carrying rage.for anyone…üòî Then for one month I didn't talk…neither he intiated the convo….and one day I don't know why I did this..I observed him over social media…being busy for 2 hours late night…..and I don't even know why it matter to me….I don't own him…..it should not have hurt ..you feel me…..I was feeling so devastated…I didn't sleep till 4 o'clock……and at 3 I send him a big long para…what he did is not good…if he knew where things will be….he should not have approached me….I was already feeling so much for him….and he approached and neglected….I felt insulted…and I thought bad for that good soul for a while…which I regeret….I wish you could have stayed away from me….so I would have suppressed my feelings and my respect for.
You could have stayed the same….I wish you were concerned about me as much as I am for you….!
I am sorry I didn't meant to kick you out of my life…..but there was no.choice……you were not even close to stand where I am standing right now….I am proud how strong you are….
anyways…..thanks for tolerating me in brief moment…I wish you happiness and luck!
