I’ve begun to fantasize about being raped by a woman because it would mean she sees something in me and wants to spend any sort time or attention on me.
I wouldn’t feel bad about this if not for the fact that one of my best friends is twice a rape victim.
She’s like a sister to me but I feel so ashamed that I WANT something so vile, so life-changing, so traumatizing to happen to me for the pathetic reason of “oh I’m lonely.” I just got finished masturbating to the thought of a woman taking advantage of me and I feel so fucking guilty.
I’m fucking pathetic.
