I feel that I have never loved anyone. correction.
The only person I ever loved and still love is myself.
The emotion that I mistook for love was never love, actually.
Did I love my father?
Honestly, No.
My emotion towards my Father, was purely out of responsibility, as a son and out of fear.
Did I love my mother?
She died when I was in my early teens.
I would guess that my emotions towards my mother also arose out of responsibility.
If that emotion is love, then I admit the last person I loved was my mother.
Did I love my sisters?
No.
It was emotions I felt arising out of my responsibilities as a brother
What about the emotions towards my girlfriends?
It was never love. it was infatuation, lust, and a sense of conquest.
What about my friends.
Again, an emotion arising out of responsibility as a friend.
What about my son?
Again, an emotion arising out of responsibility as a father.
What about myself? Yes. I love myself.
I am selfish.
It took me long enough to realize that the only person I have ever loved or will love is my own self.
Do you think you love someone?
Guess again!
. And guess what, I feel Miserable about that too.
