i used to talk to person1 everyday all the time and we got super close.
person1 used to tell me everything and would put me before anyone and and anything.
person1 barely texts me anymore and is very dry when i try to initiate conversation.
i used to want to stop texting and just go to sleep but they wanted me to stay.
i would roll my eyes and person1 would beg for me to stay, and i would be SO annoyed by that.
if i could go back and text all night till the sun came up i would.
the fucking things i would do to go back to that.
anyway though, as time went on, person1 fell for person2 and they started talking a lot.
person1 and i still talked at school but the texting wasn’t consistent anymore.
but i didn’t notice cause i was dating another person3.
i wish i could’ve seen the jealousy from person1 towards the person i was dating.
person1 would tell me about how person3 wasn’t good enough for me. i wish i would’ve listened.
right now i’d drop everything for person1. but honestly they wouldn’t do the same for me.
as much as they want me to believe they would. now onto the realization.
even after person1 and person2 broke up they continued to stay close, and text and facetime just like person1 and i used to.
if i could go back i wouldn’t have let go of the relationship person1 and i had.
person1 would talk to me sometimes. but it was always about person2.
i never thought anything of it because i was happy to text person1 again.
person1 would always apologize for constantly talking about person2. but i didn’t mind.
i just loved talking to person1.
after person1 got over person2 i just didn’t text him much unless we were making plans with other people.
recently i made the realization that made me say, “oh.” i now realize that the reason person1 only talked about person2 was because when they were fighting person1 would come to me and rant to me about person2 but once they made up person1 would just continue to tell person2 about anything and everything.
i don’t know who person1 texts now, and if it is anyone i wish i were them.
