When I was on methamphetamine, became sexually addicted and had desires of rape developing it the head, but It was ugly fantasy only, I would snort 3-4 lines up the nose. I would imagine having sex with god and the guru, I would imagine sexing up the holy book, I had fantasy of raping woman there, only fantasy . I would masturbate all night and would want to sex up the guru family in India, I was a Satan worshiper and would imagine having sex with eyes closed and would feel forces that made self to believe I was having sex, I would I aging hanging sex with diff ladies, this was on meth, I no longer do meth any more. This was all in the head in the bedroom and motel room. I was a stupid fool for doing meth.