sad sad sad

I’m 59 years old,..got aner gonna die anyday now,..served 3 tours in vietnam. Navy patrolled river mekong delta. as a rule we would shot anything that moved. saw someone about dawn on the bank hiding in the jungle. opened up with 50 caliber machine gun. first shot sky turned red, came around, looked like a 12 year old girl,.head gone,.water bucket still in her hand, Lord did not mean to do that. PLEASE GOD FORGIVE ME PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE