I am cheating on my boyfriend with his friend who is also our roommate. He’s 32 I’m 18.
My boyfriend is 19. We’ve been together for 3 years in sept.
I love him very much and we have passionate sex and stuff idk why I did it.
Maybe because the guy was older good looking and was easy and wanted me.
I can’t stop the affair though everytime I think I want to end it, I end up back in his bed.
I feel horrible. I really am started to like the 32 year old.
But it would never work and it’s the dumbest idea. Plus I love the guy I’m with now.
He was there when my dad left and got me through the hardest times of my life, I helped him graduate highschool and was with him through so much and we have so many amazing memories.
I don’t want to be with my roommate I want to be with my boyfriend.
Now I’m thinking though what do we do for the next 6 months we’re on this lease.
I mean I’m having dinner and smoking sitting next to the guy I’m fucking and my bf.
Sometimes I literally can’t help but laugh out loud and have to make up an excuse as to why I’m laughing.
I’m really fucked up.
Like mentally but I’m self aware which makes me feel like I’m not when I am.
God I can’t believe I just wanted to let it out
