I have a friend of years, we met in 2011, and well we became very close, too much.
Hugs, kisses (not on the mouth), but lots of kisses, we held hands and said “I love you” but we never said anything about what we felt or what we were. Due to things in life, we separated, but we were always in contact.
Last year she wrote to me and I was having a hard time and her message was literally life-saving. From there we started talking again, one day I got drunk and told her everything, that I liked her, that I wanted us to be girlfriends, that I wanted to kiss her.
And well, we had a couple of times that we “flirted” a bit, the ‘I love you’ came back, we saw each other 3 times, and on one of those times, I stole a kiss, nothing more.
Then one day by a message I told her that I was in love with her and I think that everything changed there, she stopped talking to me like before, super cold, she never said anything to me when I told her that, she didn’t explain why she changed so much.
And well, it hurts, it hurts a lot. I miss her; I never received any explanation; she just moved away little by little. I don’t know if I did something wrong. I don’t know.
I think she wasn’t so involved with me, or she didn’t like me. I don’t know, she was never honest and clear, I was honest in what I felt, she dedicated songs to me and then disappeared, it didn’t seem fair to me.
I was very sad, I cried, I loved her, I hated her, I waited for her, and now I have to let go.
I fell in love with a woman for the first time in my life, and it was not the best.