I'm still in love with my ex and will always take him back if he asked me.
Unfortunately I feel used and easy when he just easily finds someone else.
I live with my sister who is in debt and mother who doesn't want to work cause she has always been a house wife and is comfortable like that.
I pay for everything. Petrol, food, electricity, ens.
I earn what you wouldn't even call a basic salary and I'm fucking tired.
I'm emotionally and physically excausted from every single thing in my life.
I don't want to live anymore.
I hate living.
I have never traveled or been spontaneous or just lost control.
I want to die but I'm scared of death.
I'm scared that I can't be loved or be happy.
I want to sleep and never wake up again.
