In the past I did many awful things to impress my friend & to keep them as a friend. It wasn’t worth it. They are no longer my friends & that is for the best. Sex should not be used to keep someone in your life. They don’t actually want to be there if they pressure you in that way. If they suggest to do things that you think are immoral, find someone else. (I wish that I did.) The things that I did still bother me, & I will always try to do Penzance for my actions. That may not “wipe it clean”, but I think that God will forgive my misdeeds. (But sometimes I still feel bad for what happened.)