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I’m ashamed…

I’m 14. Okay, so, I really can’t take it anymore. Awhile ago I started, well, watching porn. Then I got into beast/incest, things that I am now disgusted and ashamed of. I had sex fantasies that I KNOW are not normal, like me as a mom doing things with my son, but not things I would ever REALLY do. Anyway, I feel that if anyone knew they would hate me for it and I really just want to let it go. I feel SO guilty and revolted. I just… want to let it go. Because I’m honestly sorry. I can’t eat, or even cry, however strange that seems. I want to just realize that I don’t have these nasty sexual thoughts anymore and that I am now a better person. Believe me, I try to get on the computer and watch tv. It… it just doesn’t help. I feel like all I honestly want to do is sleep. Right now I’m probably as close to crying as I’ve ever been. It just… hurts. And, no, I’m not making this up because I think it’s funny or whatever. I’m honestly feeling a lot of sadness and almost… really nothingness right now. I only feel slightly happy when I’m talking to my friend. Just that one person and… I don’t know what to do. I would, honestly, do ANYTHING to have my life back to normal. I know, I’m sick… I, I just… I don’t know what to do, really.

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4 Comments

  1. I had sex with my drunk mother when she was so drunk she had no idea that her son was having sex with her. So don’t feel bad having sex with my mom was the greatest experience of my life

  2. good girl you are just a little perverted slut….great!!!! men love little perverted girls….you are going to make a lot of money in your life….just be careful

  3. Perfeectly Natural Hi Zilla,

    This is perfectly natural, yes it’s natural. This is osychologival to see your parents or sis in dreams that you are sharing your bed with her. But everyone goes from this stage and you need to understand this that this phase will pass over and you won’t face this situation again.

    You are not at all mentally or physically sick you just need to give some time for this phase to go away.