I’m 14. Okay, so, I really can’t take it anymore. Awhile ago I started, well, watching porn. Then I got into beast/incest, things that I am now disgusted and ashamed of. I had sex fantasies that I KNOW are not normal, like me as a mom doing things with my son, but not things I would ever REALLY do. Anyway, I feel that if anyone knew they would hate me for it and I really just want to let it go. I feel SO guilty and revolted. I just… want to let it go. Because I’m honestly sorry. I can’t eat, or even cry, however strange that seems. I want to just realize that I don’t have these nasty sexual thoughts anymore and that I am now a better person. Believe me, I try to get on the computer and watch tv. It… it just doesn’t help. I feel like all I honestly want to do is sleep. Right now I’m probably as close to crying as I’ve ever been. It just… hurts. And, no, I’m not making this up because I think it’s funny or whatever. I’m honestly feeling a lot of sadness and almost… really nothingness right now. I only feel slightly happy when I’m talking to my friend. Just that one person and… I don’t know what to do. I would, honestly, do ANYTHING to have my life back to normal. I know, I’m sick… I, I just… I don’t know what to do, really.