I’m a weirdo. I stalk people, as in internet personalities because I’m interested in what they say. I send people hate messages. Or not really, it isn’t for the purpose of spreading hate but because I’m angered by someone’s wrong opinions. Those same people I send nice messages to as well.
I feel intense guilt if I send mean messages though. I also lurk instead of making an account and interacting. I’m not sure I could be their friend that way. And why should they be friends with a creep like me?
I feel awful when I think of the things I’ve said. And I sometimes present a two-faced personality to these people, like this girl I sent a nasty message to but who I talk nicely to in discord. I’m trying to stop and just confront people honestly if I have a problem with their opinions or just ignoring it.
Heyy
I dont think you’re weird or anything like that, we do stalk people at times and its fine as long as we are not a harm to them. Dont do something u might regret later, it might be difficult to stop, but eventually u can do it. Try thinking abt how the other person must feel when they get ur messages, if u can understand their reaction, u will probably stop. Dont seek validation and be honest to urself, ik its easier said than done but try ur best.
I think ur a good person and u will always be. I mean it <3