i want to hurt myself. it's all i've been thinking about all day.
i was hoping to sit down tonight and make myself bleed until it hurts too much to move.
i deserve it.
but i can't find my blade. it's gone.
i can't get a new razor until tomorrow because it's right by my parent's room and then they'll wake up and yell at me for being awake now.
i can't explain to them what's going on because they'll call me a liar.
i don't know what to do.
scratching isn't working. ice isn't working. my rubber band snapped.
i need my fucking blade and it sucks.
i'm sorry. i needed to get this out.
i just probably need some sleep.
