The truth is I cheated on my boyfriend almost fiance of 5 years with his cousin. I didn’t sleep with him but we had an emotional relationship which ended up in us making out and being very physical with each other. I love my boyfriend very much but I despise myself very much and so I am trying to find acceptance from men. Today I’m choosing to let my past go. I want to start new I want to know that I am capable of and able to love. I’m scared that this will ruin our marriage but I’m praying that there is still time to save our love. It’s my choice today to be a different woman. No more lies only truth…