I don’t feel

I have been diagnosed as bi-polar. I don’t feel anything. I don’t love my girlfriend. I don’t try at my job. I don’t enjoy my hobbies or time with my friends. I fake 95% of the emotions that I outwardly show. I want people to leave me alone. I am on medication, it does nothing. I have been on so many different medicines the last 15 years that I don’t remember all of their names. I feel nothing.