Forgive me God

You know what kind of life I had, but I hate myself for so many of the things I did. Forgive me for prostituting myself at 15. Please forgive me for stealing from those who cared about me. Here I am 20 years later and I still love in fear of people finding out. I still cannot forgive myself. I was told I was going to hell. Please see I was damaged and felt nothing. I’m still just 5 years years old and just want to be loved. How can I change what I have done? Please forgive me.