I am falling hardcore in love with my best friend. The thing is, he’s gay. He knows I have a crush on him cause I told him I did. He responded by saying he has thought about having sex with me but he knows it won’t happen, but it’s fun to think about. I am always thinking about him. We text, instant message & hang out often. We have always flirted with each other but sometimes I wonder if he means what he says cause I do. When we are together it feels like there is something there between us. We have great chemistry & we are so much alike. We text each other I love you every once in a while & it always makes my heart melt. He is such a sweetheart & I love him like crazy. I just wish this was easier. I tell him everything but this is one thing I don’t know how to tell him. I haven’t been jealous of the guys he talks about being with. I am jealous of one of his female friends (he has a lot of them). There is nothing going on between them but I am still jealous of her. I hate feeling this way. I just don’t know what to do about it. It’s driving me crazy! I guess I will just have to get enough courage & talk to him about this. I don’t want to keep any secrets from him. What a mess this is!