When I Was Younger Mum Didn’T Properly Explain That Sex Was Only For A Partner You Love

When I was younger mum didn't properly explain that sex was only for a partner you love and that it's a very personal thing that shouldn't be done with certain people at all, I was about 7 when this happened and I thought it was just a way of showing someone anyone that you love them so I made a point of doing it with my brother one night to show him I love him wasn't until few months later that she explained it to me in further detail, at the time never really thought much of it because I was so young but slowly over the years as I've gotten older the guilt been eating away at me Im a distcusting human and want nothing more then to tell me parents sincerely apologise to my brother and have my self locked away forever because I just don't deserve any kind of human rights, worst part is I don't even know if my brother remembers or not as it was absolutely years ago but it eats away at me constantly and I put myself very rightly at blame for the way my brother is now he's not very socialble and he flinched a lot and he seems to have something wrong with him, however I can't tell if that's because I traumatised him and it could have been prevented had I not done that or because he just genuinely has something wrong with him because he suffers with a stammer anyway and that effects him a lot in the social category…

Either way no glossing over this I was very much in the wrong and I feel I need to make it known for my brothers benifit so that he can get help with the fact he's a victim of my utter stupidity and torture I feel I've put him through….