Playing home, with cousins (lesbian act)

When I was young I didn’t understand it at the time. My csousins came to my house a lot, we played house. She laid on top me with clothes on and had sex with me. Both sisters that were cousins of mine did that to me. The worst thing was that I was actually enjoying it. Then I started doing it to my other cousin when they young. I didn’t know at the time what my cousins were doing or what I was doing because I was young and didn’t understand. I thought if you played house that what you had to do. I was like 4yrs old. you might think this is a Lesbians confession, but I am not a lesbian, i have boy friend and is happy with him