I am a looser

I am 18 years old and i was really close friends with this guy tat i go to skool with. like we were extremely close, you could say we r bestfrends or were i really don’t know anymore. we were always together juse like bestfriends would be.
then we started liking each other and one night at a party we hooked up. that night he was kinda being obsessive n that is one thing i don’t like about guys. he had asked me out the same night and told me he loved me which i new wasn;t rlly tru because he had juss gotten over a gurl.
anyways we decided that we would juss be frends over summer n see how things go. over summer he kept bothering me and we weren;t even together, like he would always accuse me of doing stuff and that lead to us not talking for a while. and now that we r back at school things aren’t the same like we bearly talk or ahng out anymore and feelings have come back and i don’t know what to do because i had a chance with him and i messed it up. i kind of also didnt wanna get with him because of another guy i liked at home. i really wanna talk to him about it but he seems happy now and i don’t wanna go and confuse him now. I really don’t know what to do. i miss how close we were before and it is wierd not really hanging out with him and stuff.