Thank You God, for Bailing Me Out

I would get offended easily, and so would run away. I was not able to tolerate offenses and so i would run away. I should have stayed in La Puente. Nothing was gained with us moving, and then again and again and again. I should have kept my mouth closed and tolerate and just make the best of a bad situation so it would not get worse but better in the long run.

Now my son died. I am ashamed of my infidelity, which almost destroyed my marriage. My daughter suffered spousal abuse for 8 years until she bailed out. Even though in the end i became successful financially and established with wife and family, it was the long way and just a lot of heartache and suffering and difficulty.

If i knew any better i should not have put my wife through all this stupidity and turmoil to survive. I hope to stop crying one day and be happy.

Thank you God, for bailing me out.

I know i cannot turn the clock back so i ask for the ability to reestablish myself emotionally, to put the past behind me, to figure what direction forward is and go that way.