I’m so damn stupid.

My ex hoards dogs. This means he has more dogs than he can adequately care for. He just spent $500 to save the life of one of his dogs that should have gone towards keeping the property we jointly own from possibly being foreclosed for back taxes. I am trying to move on with my life. He is making it impossible by interfering, due to the ongoing health issues of this one dog.

I had woken up numerous times drenched in dog urine because she wets the bed. He won’t insist she stay off the furniture. If I take the meds the doctor perscribe me (not for pain, for a chemical imbalance I have in my brain) heaven help me if I couldn’t care for the dogs and clean up behind them. That’s one of the reasons why I left, along with his severe emotional abuse towards me. He also is a substance abuser.

I’m so damn stupid.