Life has never been great for me, things just keep getting harder and harder. I never planned to make it this far in life, why I made it I guess I will never know. I went to college only for 5 months. I couldn’t tell you if I hated or loved it because it was a mixture of both. I wouldn’t have started therapy without college it helps but I’m literally just paying to talk to someone that will never be a friend. I don’t know what I’m doing with my life and I’m afraid. I would never say that out loud but I am truly afraid.