Tonight at 2:00 am I met my best friend after many months. We were best friends. Not as in a friend who was closer than other friends, rather a person who became so close to me we can only describe each other as ‘best friends for life’. I (female) don’t know if I loved him, but I knew our bond was special, and I’ve always felt protective of him. He was my first best friend.
When I met him after so long I thought we would have fun like we always had, but then our conversation changed to love, and that’s when he told me. He’d been dating our common friend for a long time. She’d first been my childhood friend and that’s how I met him, but for some reason me and him gelled better, and quickly became closer.
At this point, he’d been dating her for a few years, and I helped him do that, I was the one who set it up. Today, he confessed that he was deeply in love with her for a long time, and he believed that they were soulmates. He was so enamored by her his eyes shone and he talked about her for a straight 15 minutes. For the first time in my life, I felt something indescribable in my heart, I don’t know if it was love, happiness, jealousy, longing, pain because I thought – no I knew, he was too good for her.
Given my family, given my life, I truly thought I’d never find love. I was a hopeless romantic, indeed, a person in love with love while knowing it was hopeless. To see them find love so quickly made my heart burn. This incident also made me realize how many feelings I’ve never felt before, and how many more strange feelings might come my way. Will I be ready for those? I truly am happy for him. Sad because I know it won’t last, but I’m still happy for him.