I love him

1-2 months back, my boyfrnd and I were having some problms.such a bad phase it was. I got close to one of his friends and discussed my problms with him. The boy is very frank and quite a good frnd of my bf. One night,me nd my frnd were talking seating in the near by ground. He was a bit high.But I was not. We had a liking for each other. But, we also knew dat dis is nt love. coz i hav my man in my life and he also has his own girlfrnd. The night was quitr tricky. In the course of time, we got so much close, nd donno why we kissed. For a frction of second. The very next second we realise dour fault dat we were on way to deceive our respective bf nd gf… aftr dat we sorted out things. first i tried to hide dis from my boyfrnd. But, as i luv him so much, i dint want 2 hide anythng frm him. I told him evrythng. First he dint care bout it at all. He said dat its ok for him as he trusts me. But, for da last few days I am seeing dat his reaction’s bcome totally reverse. Now he tells dat he dosn’t trust me anymore nd dat we shud nt b in a relationship anymore….i xplained evrythng to him….but he dint accept. I knw no one can 4give me for wat I hav done…some can say dat i am very much backdated as I think of dis sooo much….but, i really luv my boyfrnd and I knw he also does…….but…..i am jus getting fade up…..i think our guilt concious is da strongest punishment one can suffer……i hav gone thru dat….i knw how much it hurts…….i jus cant loose him….i surely cant…..