I Was New To The Spiritual… They Said It Was Wrong, But I Did It Anyway

i was new to the spiritual world but i wanted to meet god and a angel so i went on youtube and did some spiritual mediation videos on how to open your pineal gland expecting nothing to happen but something did happen i left the earth and went to another world to a world that was spiritual and while i was there i could feel spirits touching me and talking to me and as i was laying on my bed i heard the name Gabriel pop up in to my mind like a spirit was talking to me in my mind and i answered back i dont know who he is and it replied your about to find out and i started feeling a pain in my vagina like this spirit was trying to have sex with me or rape me or something and this is a good angel why would something good sexually attack me