I am thirty and pregnant with my boss’ child. He is forty nine, married, with a home a children. It is the result of a four year affair with him. He wanted me to get pregnant. I agreed. Now that I am pregnant I am not so sure this is a good idea. I thought hard about getting an abortion, but I can’t. I am now sixteen weeks along. I have never told him that I actually went to abortion clinic, I got that far. I want to love and want this baby, out of wedlock, with a married man. To him having me lift my dress up over my belly so he can lay his head against it makes him happy. Just the idea that you will lift your dress up at work for a man should tell you how bad it is. Since he began having sex with me I totally surrendered. Call it what you want, I fell in love and can’t shake it.
I am scared of his wife now, I wasn’t but I am now. What will she say when she finds out I have his baby? She is a nice woman, doesn’t deserve a husband who runs around on her. But at times I am sure that she knows and just looks the other way. I don’t deserve a man who runs around on his wife. But it’s too late for that now, I’m pregnant.
