I have been with this guy for four years now, we live together and he pays for everything, even my car.
I am only with him because i would be homeless otherwise
he is more like a brother to me now than anything, making love to him is a chore.
i feel like i am paying rent every time we have sex, its a chore and not a passion anymore.
i feel old, fat and ugly at the ripe old age of 23
my family all but told me that they would disown me if we break up
i love him, just not romantically though
i feel as though i cant break up with him until i finish grad school and get a job
and i probably wont do that either, because i feel like i owe him so much
i will live the rest of my life with this guy, dealing w/his horrible family
I am mourning the loss of my young adulthood, I wonder if anyone else will find me attractive
i think i am a horrible person
i cant confess this to anyone in the world
i feel suffocated
i dont know what to do
i am just not interested in sex with him anymore, or at all for that instance
sometimes i really think that the world is going to end in 2012.
If anyone has anything helpful to say, please do, because I feel so alone. Its not that i am using him, i just dont know….