I am a professional who works from home.
I'm in my 40s and have, over the last several years, found myself overwhelmed and sometimes depressed.
I'm married with kids.
When things get really low, I look for quick escapes, which for me, has been seeking out sexual interactions with women online who are willing to help me get aroused and released.
Those moments of arousal can sometimes last for an hour or two.
It takes me away from my work and furthers my shame and sense of hopelessness.
I've tried some counseling, but that didn't really help.
I love my family, but these online sexual encounters let me escape for a few minutes.
Then I hate myself and feel like I'm weak and childish for succumbing to such a stupid temptation.
It seems like it should be an easier thing to avoid and stop, but I've yet to conquer it.
One quick search leads me to the bodies of beautiful women I can lust over and then the dopamine takes over and I abandon everything else.
I don't want this anymore, yet I know the temptation will come again and it will be the only thing I want for those few minutes or hours.
If anyone else has navigated something similar, have you found anything to help you break the cycle?
