I don't want to be like my parents. My mom was manipulative. My dad gaslit me for ages.
My stepdad abused me for years, and my stepmom left me when I needed her most.
All four blamed me for their problems, including their divorces.
I'm taking efforts to better myself where none of them ever did.
If I ever have kids, I'm not going to be like my dad and play mmos at my desk for the entirety of my life, or like my mom who let an abusive partner dictate her future.
I need to be better.
I have to be better. I don't have any other options.