Sick Love

I’m not sure it’s love now, but I thought it was. I was crazy about someone. They betrayed me in a horrible way. Manipulated me, I loved him before all this, he made it twisted & ugly. I cry over him. I want him. I want him to make love to me. I want… I want I want… & he’s sick & doesn’t care about me at all. He just wants to abuse me & I want to love him madly! I fantasize about him all the time. He’s like a poison. I’m also married to a wonderful man ! I hate him & yet love him & I want him inside me now. This guy could kill me.