Question for gay tops or bisexual tops please read on. Hope you can help maybe with a reply?
Hi I’m a sixty year old married man, I’ve been married 35 years. My wife got menopause at 60 and went totally off any sexual contact. I have only had full sex with my wife (yes she took my V card). I did have two girlfriends in my 20’s at different times I might add. But neither of them I had sex with, one would allow me to masturbate her and she would masturbate me in turn, the other gave me handjobs too but wanted me to perform oral sex on her, not that that happened too many times before we broke up.
At 52 I did slightly stray at a summer camp in Spain (yes I kinda cheated on my wife). It happened in the early hours of the morning in a communal open shower block. With a man. He was older than me and we were both showering. I was washing my penis when he piped up in Spanish first I think, I said sorry I’m English. He then said you know pulling on it more than four times is classed as a wank. I laughed embarrassingly and turned to reply I guess so, at which when I looked at him that was what he was actually doing. Strangely my own penis twitch and went to half mast. Why this happened and why I did not run I do not know (I thought I was 100% a heterosexual guy). I guess he saw by my reaction he could go further. He actually came and stood next to me. Again I did not move and was strangely not repulsed. I was scared yes, I was nervous yes and I’m sure I was sweating, not that you could tell in the shower.
My mind began to cast up sexual images, what happens if he wants you to blow him or take his penis in your ass. Again I found I was not repulsed by the idea. In point of fact my penis seemed to like the idea, it went to full mast and started twitching. Again I guess the guy thought he could go further and took hold of my penis and gave it a hard squeeze, which in someways was a good idea I think, because if he had not I think I might have cum (I thought Jesus what’s wrong with me). He took my hand then and placed it on his penis and I began to wank him back. It was like my mind had flipped. He actually leant in and kissed me too. Again I did not stop him, in fact when he put his tongue in my mouth and sucked on my tongue, my imagination went yes claim my mouth as your own. He then slipped behind me and was giving me a reach around wank while caressing my ass. I don’t know how long this went on for I lost track of time. I could feel his fingertips brush over my actual asshole and again I did not still pull away. In fact my mind went to what do you think it will feel like if he opens your asshole with his cock head! Still I did not run. He actually slipped a finger tip in my ass and I could feel his erection pressing along my ass crack as he kissed my neck. I thought omg is he going to fuck me? Am I going to let him? Then we heard the shower block door open and we broke apart.
We both put our shower robes on and left. The strange thing was I did not see him on the camp grounds after. Maybe that was a good thing.
Now the strange thing was I did not think about it really too much after per se until three years later. While watching some porn (being sexually frustrated because of no sex) the memory came back to me so I decided to watch some bi porn to see if it turned me on. Strangely I did get erect, so decided to change it to Trans porn, telling myself I was not bi curious right if it was more like a woman. But then strangely I found myself being more turned on if the transsexual topped the guy.
I thought fuck am I actually bi curious to try. So yes you guessed it I put on gay porn, and found myself masturbating more at the thought of riding cock! It actually over the years got to the point of me actually digging out my wife’s old g-spot vibrator and using it on myself. I found that inserting it in me made me hard and sometimes leak precum (I don’t know if that’s because of the shape of the g-spot vibrator stimulating my prostate mind you). But the thing is now it makes me wonder about real cock, what’s it feel like, can you feel it throb in your ass, can you feel the head expand when it pumps cum in you, can you actually feel the cum?
So I’m wondering now if I should try it? Would a gay or bisexual man actually like to take an old guys anal cherry so to speak or would it be too much trouble and they just want an instant fast fuck?
