It’S An Addiction I’M Yet To Overcome

Hello.

My name is Luis Maia, and I commited a grave sin against my sister.

I told her I felt something romantic for her.

When she said brothers can't be in a romantic relationship, I lost my temper and called her a whore.

Because of my sudden mood swing, I felt like hurting my sister, so I said I wanted to have a sexual moment with her.

To my embaressment, I might have said something eschatological-sexual to her, again, to hurt her.

All of this happened years ago, through a messaging app.

I feel so embarassed and guilty.

Context: I have a mood disorder called "bipolar disorder type 2" with episodes of psychosis.

But I think what really made me do this was my addiction to pornography.

It's an addiction I'm yet to overcome.

Again, eschatological sexual content was something I communicated to her, which is the comulus of human degradation.

I want to do good and pay for my sins.

I deeply regret my actions, and have not being aggresive since I started to take my medication.

I'd like to emphatize that the mood swing is typical of mood disorders, but the structure behind this sort of violence is due to pornography.