I am ashamed of my past relationship.
I come from a religious background and i was in an interfaith relationship when i was 16.
The relationship lasted for 4 years before i was cheated on.
I did not sleep with my partner but there were moments of physical intimacy between us sometimes.
But now 4 years after I have broken up, I dont know why I feel so ashamed of myself for my past.
I dont want anybody to know about my past relationship but somehow most of people I come across in my city know about it as i come from a small city where apparently everybody knows everybody.
Also I have never been into another relationship because of that.
I dont want to tell my past to my partner in the future but what if she gets to know it from somewhere else.
I just wish i could erase that part entirely from my life.