I moved into a dorm in my freshman year with a pot luck roommate. She was tall and fit, she was there on an athletic scholarship. We were very different, I was studious and religious, she was a party girl and agnostic. I felt it was my duty to bring her back to the faith. What I wanted more than anything was for her to go to church with me.
She avoided me. One morning after her shower she walked over to me, I was sitting on the bed, and she lifted my head by the hair and suck her crotch in my face. I reacted, but she kept my face in her crotch. She told me she was a lesbian, so leave her alone or she was going to fuck me.
I became jealous and clingy. I didn’t want her seeing anyone romantic. I wanted her to walk with me holding hands, I wanted her to kiss me. I prayed when I was alone, but when she was with me all I wanted was for her to hold me. I couldn’t shake the feeling. The crush controlled me, I yelled at her because she didn’t go to church with me. I told her I loved her.
She went to church with me. She even got dressed up and walked with me. She sat beside me and let me hold her hand under the Bible. We left church and walked out holding hands. We went back to our dorm room and she took me apart and ‘fucked’ me. This time when she held my face up her crotch I opened my mouth for her. This time it was ‘sex’ and I couldn’t stop and didn’t want to.
I was also a lesbian. I didn’t know it. It explained a lot for me. But my faith held me, and she didn’t like being dragged to church on Sundays, but she got dressed and walked with me. One Sunday at church I asked her to never leave me. She responded that she would never do that, she loved me. We walked out of the church holding hands like all the other couples.
Older, and working, we went to the court house and got married. We thought about adoption, but settled on a double pregnancy, same father. Letting a man impregnate me was the hardest thing I have done in my life, he impregnated both of us, together. He is her older cousin. We are going to have babies.
