I apologize. I have committed a detestable act.
I am tempted, I try not to consume porn. It is sin and destroys my life.
I use an app to motivate and keep track of clean streaks. I manage 4 days frequently before relapse. Recently I relapsed from my longest streak of 28 days and felt very defeated.
My frustration gave way to a disgraceful binge where I went into categories so horrendous, I regret it so deeply. I need to confess, I need forgiveness.
In my sleep, my thoughts led me to the idea of penance, which I plan to do.
Prayer, meditation, gospel, and charity.
That doesn’t get me forgiveness, I recognize that; but I do feel compelled to do so.