I've been in a relationship with Don for close to three years and know he wants to marry me.
He does know I was a drug addict but not for the 7 years I was.
I'm clean now for 4 years but Don has no conception of how bad I was.
I not only prostituted myself but did hundreds of blow jobs for 20 bucks.
I was beaten, raped and sodomized 4 times and subjected to a gang bang 3 times from a drug dealing motorcycle club.
The third time I went to rehab I was able to straighten myself out.
Don is a clean cut guy with a wonderful family and I do love him very much.
I don't know how I could possibly tell him how horrible my addiction was and the things I did to obtain drugs.
He is extremely honest with me about everything but I can't bring myself to admit what I was.
I don't know whether to tell him some things or not say anything.
I always fear he will find out about me.
the truth is the person we are today is the sum of all our experiences good and bad. and we are all on a journey your past is exactly that the past it cant be changed but should not control the future you are not that girl now so don’t let your future be ruined because you are holding on to things that you cant change , give yourself a break and let the past go , you have nothing to be ashamed and tbh the sex isn’t that bad lots of girls have sucked that many and only for a drink and also most of what you did apart from the beating is what women wish they could do that as long as they don’t get caught and woman love anal and would love a gang bang.. you have nothing to torture yourself with and its true somethings are best left alone why hurt him for no reason my advice is only look forward and at least put the things you learnt to good use and be great in bed .