This is about my biggest regret:
Two weeks ago, I went to my weed dealer to get some weed as I was about to run out. At the time I had realised I owed him a debt – hard to say how much but maybe £100.
When we spoke he asked for at least £100 if I wanted to get more. At the time I had basically nothing except money for fuel. I was a bit pleading with him and after a while he shared his joint he was smoking with me.
Then he made a joke about me giving his dog a blowjob to pay. I was shocked of course and disgusted. But I paused a second to think about it. I guess he noticed as then he kinda doubled down.
He got real serious and started adding to it – he’d pay cash and he’d let me smoke the rest of the joint and my debt would be wiped out and I’d get a small amount of weed too to take home.
Eventually I decided to try and so after talking a while and smoking as much as I could I laid on my back like a mechanic under a car and well yah… I did what he had asked.
It’s a huge regret of mine and I also feel weirdly turned on by it too which is conflicting. I am worried my bf might find out and worried about what will happen when I go to my dealer.
