When I was in school I used to ride my bike around after school waiting on my mother to get off work. One afternoon a man stopped me and said he had seen me and he insisted I get off to talk with him and I followed him behind the pump building where he proceeded to have sex with me. It wasn’t that I tried to stop him, I let him kiss me and lower my pants, fondle me, give me oral sex, before asking me to give him oral sex. I never regretted it, it was a one time thing, I never saw that man again, although I looked for him.
I was a college student with a part time job working at the movie theater on the weekends. A man who went to the movies would always say hi to me and I said hi back and one afternoon when he showed me his ticket he grabbed my hand and told me that I was quite handsome, not letting go of my hand. He said if I got bored I could come sit in the movie with him. The afternoon showings were generally very light attendance and I went into the movie to see where he was sitting. He called me over and put his arm around me and asked me if I wanted him to kiss me. I let him kiss me, fondle me, and I fondled him and bent over to give him oral sex.
This time I had overstepped myself and I wanted to see him again but it wasn’t until several weeks later that he came in and remembered me. I told him that it was too risky to go into the theatre so he suggested that when I got off he would wait for me. I went with him to his apartment and he undressed me and had sex with me. Again I wanted to and I let him and I went home with my head going crazy.
At college I had a professor assistant that I talked to about my grades. He said that it was hard to work part time and stay current. I had to decide. We talked and he asked me about a girlfriend, was that taking up my time? I hesitated, and he asked quietly, if I had a boyfriend or someone like that. I confessed to him about the park and the man in the theatre. He was easy and said that some guys like guys and that wasn’t that bad as long as I liked it. He asked me if I wanted to get some pizza and we went to this pizza place, and then to his apartment. He helped me undress and show me that liking being with a man was ok and we had sex and he told me that if I wanted I could be his boyfriend.
I liked that, being his boyfriend, having sex with him and him tutoring me and helping me with my college grades. I now that I am confessing to being gay. There’s nothing wrong with it, liking to be with a man instead of a girl.
