Hi! I thought it was only a crush but I fell more harder than I thought. I want to confess but I’m afraid of rejection. Until, your friend want to take a picture of us without you knowing and annoyed me to take a picture of us. So, I agreed to that. In that situation, you know that I have a crush on you.
“What ifs?”, are starting and coming more often in my mind but my ego won’t back down. We don’t have any conversation even we are classmates. It’s okay, because I know we are both shy. I’m a quiet person and you are an introvert.
There is one time I gather my courage to ask a title of a comic which you made on Facebook, you replied, and I replied thanks. End of conversation. I was happy with that one reply but slowly kicked into me that this guy is not interested to me. How can I say so? Guys will give attention to a girl without asking for it.
He will come to you without asking for the girl’s attention. I believe actions speak louder than words. You avoid me. I caught you looking at me and avoided it. When we were near, we didn’t talk. Every we had a day post, we viewed each other, but at the same, I intended to view, but for you, I think it was just passing by when you just playing games.
Intramurals day, there was a girl sitting beside you. I was in denial that she is your girlfriend and convince myself that she is one of your circle of friends. I keep looking at you two, talking like you have your own world. I want to cry, but I need to hold it in.
I shouted to my heart when cheering classmates playing to lessen the pain. Then, I was convinced when that girl rested on your shoulder and make my heart broken. At the same time, I have a headache because I did not any eat breakfast and lunch. I go out of the gym and refresh myself.
The wind embraces my lonely heart and accepts that heartbreak. Until now, I was having a hard time letting go of this pure love. I think this love won’t be for me. I think it was enough even though my heart says no. I really want to end this and talk to you as a classmate only and nothing else. Maybe the good choice of action is to hide these feelings and lock them inside my heart. Never resurface again.