Hey everyone.
I’m typing this out feeling guilty.
Me and my ex bf of 3 years broke up a few months ago.
The break up was needed cuz we both were exhausted at that point.
But I always thought maybe we’d get back together and that this ‘break’ would be good.
Ofc I still had my doubts about the relationship but it was a slight hope.
2 months later he starting dating again.
And I was heartbroken.
Felt like I was being replaced constantly compared myself to her.
Cuz she was everything he ever wanted from me.
Long story short Eventhough all this happened.
He still talk to me well on and off sometimes.
He says that’s he’s still not completely over me.
Ik he’s in another relationship now.
And he’s genuinely happy there.
But idk why he occasionally comes to me for physical intimacy it’s not like they don’t have that either.
After that’s done we both feel guilty and worried both for ourselves and then and we leave.
I think it’s maybe Beacuse he still has feelings for me? Idk I have t asked him properly yet.
But we shouldn’t do this right.
It’s not fair and right to any of us involved here.
But I’m also afraid that he’ll leave.
I keep hoping maybe someday he’ll choose to be single again.
Not in hopes of getting back togther ofc we both have our problems that we need to work out on ourselves.
But atkeast to grow into better people.
I miss him.
I still like him too.
But I’m also equally hurt.
