When I was 12 we had a neighbor and the son was a senior in high school and he was nice to me and wanted to be around him. He grabbed me by the crotch one day and got my penis out and sucked on it and then had me suck on him. I loved sucking on his cock, and doing anything that pleased him.
The later years of high school were different and any behavior that looked like being gay or queer was made fun of. I didn’t have friends in high school, mostly masturbated to my own fantasies. I enrolled in the local city college and had a bad experience there and dropped out.
I got a job working as a stocking clerk at night for the supermarket. They had a girl who also did stocking, she was aggressive and wanted to have sex and we had sex one night at the store. My first time, I lost my virginity to her.
I enrolled to a college that was away from where I grew up and I didn’t make friends. I never fantasized about girls, it was always about guys. I wanted to suck cock so bad, but I was scared. In my senior year I had sex with a quiet girl because things just went too far. She became pregnant and we got married.
We’ve been married now for forty years. Our sex lives have been obligatory, her comments many times was to ask if I had to do that. She resented me getting her pregnant. Many times I thought that she had a preference for other girls. She behaved like that.
For me there were encounters, always happenstance, where I sucked some guy, a couple of times it was full love making in a hotel bed with a man, I liked kissing and having the man rub my body down. I wanted to, and did, suck their cock. I wanted them to cum. A few times I really wanted to kiss with the man.
Now that we are no longer young, my wife has her life and I have mine. She has a friend that she spends a lot of time with, and I have a friend I spend a lot of time with. He is divorced and that’s where we meet to kiss and make love. I always want to please him, and I love to suck his cock. He ‘likes’ to get his ‘rocks off’ and I let him fuck.
My wife I am sure is a gay lesbian, and I’m sure I am a gay man.
