i have written this in my mother tongue.
i dont care if people dont understand what i have written because that is the sole reason for me trying to be anonymous.
dear maa and papa
eta tomader jonne likhchhi.
ami janina tomra eta kokhono porbe kina, asha orchhi jenno kokhono e naa poro karon ete ami kichhu shottii kotha likhchhi jeta jante parle hoyto tomader amr upor theke bishwash shara jibon er moton chole jabe.
hain, tomra amake jotota bhalo bhabo totota bhalo ami noi.
goto koyek maash dhore ami repeatedly tomader thokiyechhi.
kono porikhha dini ar neet er kono pora o korini, shotti kotha bolte ami cheshta korechhi, kitu mon bosheni–ekdom e tai shoto cheshta korar por o ami eta figure out korte parini je ki bhabe porle amr syllabus shesh hobe, ar 9din baki neet er ar amar ekhono syllabus e shesh hoyni.
tai amr bhitore etto ghenna ar bhoy kaaj korchhe,
ami shotti nijer upor lojjito, ami kaaj ta thik korini but shei muhurte tomader kachhe shikar korar moton moner shot shahosh hhilo na– ekhon o nei.
tai eita likhchii, tomader sathe direct kotha na bole,
ami jani tomra hoyto bhabbe je tomra etto understanding hoyar poreo ami kikore tomader theke chepe gelam puro bepar ta.
kintu bishwash koro amr kachhe ei jinish ta niye koha bolata khub e edifficult.
kintu hain mitthhe bolar jonnne ami shotti sorry, proti baar tomader mithhe bolar shomoy amr mone hoyechhe amr buker modhhe chhuri boshiye jeno ektu kore keyo mangsho kete niyechhe.
kintu amr khonosthayi satisfaction ar tomader ke tension free rakhar ichhe oi buker khoto ta ke muchhe diye amake eta bujhiyechhe je ami ja korchhi thik korchhi.
hoyto ami khub selfish, hoyto ami khub e joghono ekta meye.
kintudiner shesh ei tuku ami jani je ei prithibite ami shob theke beshi harbo shei din jeidin ami tomder k khushi korte parbona.
eta 2022 ami 19 yrs old.
ami tomader kahhe kono na kono din asha korchhi shotti ta bolar shott shahosh pabo jei din hyto amr obostha er theke 1000x bhalo hobe.
thakur ke daki je amr jibone jeno sheirokom din e beshi daaye ar taratari daaye.
ami tomder e jaa thokiyechhi tar jonne sorry ta khub chhoto ekta word tai ami chai neet er age amr shaddhyo joto totota pore exam dite tomra eta ke amr prayeshitto hishebe grohon koro ar parle tomader moddhe jei thakur achhe je jaane je ami tomader ke din er por di mithhe bolechhi, she thakur jeno amay khoma kore.
ami amr onnay er prayeschhitto hishebe alcoholkhawa agami 5 years er jonne willingngly sacrifice korlam.
thakur noy erokom bebostha kore debe jate amake drik kortei nahoy noyto kono ekta rasta ber kore debe ami jani.
joy maa
joy baba bholenath
